Emily’s party was a success . The bad news was that I was jealous. Nicky stole the spotlight by looking great in her sundress and I was flush with jealousy. It seemed everyone was asking her about her weight loss and then she ate cake and ice cream! Nicky had lost another 5 lbs in the 3 ½ weeks since we had our first planning session. I am watching my sister do something I want to do so desperately, lose the weight and grab attention. I didn’t want my daughters birthday party to become a red carpet affair for my sister though.
The worst came later as Danny and I were cleaning up. He had noticed Nicky at the party and after she had left he mentioned to me that she looked great, even younger. Was he saying that I looked older, come on Danny, I am the mother of your children, do you think that giving birth is easy! My misery that night gave way to a emotional binging session.