I struggle to write anything this time of year.  I am so busy, we just got back from shopping, and now, I need a nap!  I am eating fast food because I have to grab something quick.

I would like to say that I really like The Diet Smart Plan's approach to fast food.  In a pinch, you can have it without guilt or worry and really know the difference.  Today, it was a junior whopper without cheese or mayo for less than 250 calories with a small fry.  I did well, and I am still on the plan.  Memo here, it is effective to know where you are going before you go, it makes the research much easier. 

another half lb! things are going very well this week, but I am now sick of carrots and peas.  Enough of the free foods for a while, I think I will move up to basics.  By the way, 14 lbs. total in 53 days, not bad but I still have a ways to go.

Sorry I missed my weekly recap weigh-in, but I am now under 180 lbs!!!!!! GO ME.....

I think I am getting very close to that size 10 I have been waiting for.  I am thinking by Christmas I want everyone, I mean everyone to buy me new clothes or give me a gift card to shop for myself.  I think that I could get that size 10 at the rate I am going.  I really see it in my arms, no more flab hanging down, now just a bit squishy. 

Work has been good for me, I feel like I am making a real contribution.  I miss the kids and I have had to fight guilt this week.  Eating at work also presents new challenges and new opportunities to lose weight.  I hate the going out as a group, not the group, but the fear of overeating in front of others. 

Water weight gain, so I am not goiing to report my weigh in weight.  Why do we have to weigh in every day twice a day?  I feel weird, one day up, one day down, this is crazy.  Good news is that I am eating pretzels and they are doing the trick when it comes to a new snack.

I am feeling much better today, I think it was just cramps yesterday and learning how to cope with denying every single desire I want when it comes to food.  I have also learned to deal with the bad habits, and I mean I had a number of them, such as my constant "grazing" from 1 in the afternoon until about 6 pm. 

Day 46, that is hard to believe.  I am really getting tired of the diet type foods, I think I need to branch out more to the modified category for a while to keep sane.  I also need some variety, the rice cakes this week have been rough.

 The good news is that I am back to 181, the weight before my Thanksgiving trip to the inlaws.  I have also feel much better in my size 12's, so I am happy, but the drudgery is getting to me bad.  Enough of the turkey leftover sandwiches, enough of the pickles, and if I see another vegetable, I am going to scream.

It's late and I am tired, but I wanted to write tonight.  I am down a lb. today, so I am back to 182 lbs.  I have lost half of my thanksgiving gain and back on track.  Turkey sandwiches and pickles for lunch.  I guess I should put a link for the website, it has been a while.

www.thedietsmartplan.com

We are leaving today and not a moment too soon.  Last night, the inlaws took us to a nice italian restaurant where we ordered family style and Danny's brother and sister were there.  Lasagna, spaghetti, etc...  I ate like a pig.

My stomach is swollen and stretched, but I am not going to let guilt get me down.  today is a new day!  For the week, I am saying that I have not lost any weight.  I am still at 183, earlier this week, I was at 181 or even 180, but that is long ago.  I am at 183.  I need to get back into my routine, and I hope that the exercise room is open on monday.

I peeked at the scale, I dare not tell you the results. I am chalking it up to water weight and a different scale.  I was expecting somewhere around 181 lbs, the last time I weighed in, but I was sadly surprised. 

Yesterday was quite fun and I enjoyed spending time with Danny's parents, but we also hit the mall and we did some power shopping! I guessed that with my new job I needed to get a jump start on the holidays.  Danny and his dad played golf and then took Josh to the movies.  Emily went with us to the mall and wanted to go home about 5 hours into our expedition. 

I had mall food court food.  YUCK!

We have a lot of things to catch up on, so let's get to it!

 I am now a working mom, the office is so nice to me and I really enjoy it.  My first day they took me out to lunch (baked flounder, rice, and vegetables) and I am getting to meet some great people.  The office building is very nice and I am learning a lot about my job and what I am supposed to do.  My guilt is in the afternoon when I used to be with Josh and Emily, but now, they are a bit older and I have to reestablish myself.  There is a small exercise room at the office that I am signing up to use, I want to start on monday with the treadmill and working out with weights twice a week to start toning up.