It is Sunday and I go to work tomorrow.  I am in a size 12, I have lost a total of 11 lbs. and I am the lightest I have been in at least 5 years.  I weighed in today at 182.  I am more self confident and more aware of how my presense impacts others.  In the past I would fall back into the background, but I am sure that my weight loss and my ability to present myself worked hand-in-hand.  Now that I got the job, the question for the week is can I survive?

10 LBS in ONE MONTH! I feel great!  I made my first goal.  I love this, it is really working!  I haven't ever accomplished anything and I am really doing it.  Needless to say, I have more work to do, I am not satisfied with just 183 and a size 12, I want that size 6 from my wedding day!

Starting my fiveth week and my last week at home before I got full time back to work.  thoughts turn to the holidays and my reconnection.  I feel vibrant but I also want to have lunch with some good friends and family and spend some time with Josh before I head to school. 

I am thinking of taking the week of thanksgiving off the diet.  I start my job on monday, work through wednesday and then I have two days off and we are heading to Danny's parents for Thanksgiving. I guess I could give back a lb. or two, I mean I haven't sweated one time to lose ten pounds.

Today closes out my fourth week.  I put on a dress for Sunday services that I bought in the hopes that someday that I would be able to fit into it.  It was only a size 12, and I thought that if I bought a size smaller (maybe two sizes, my size 14's were a bit snug when I started) I would inspire myself to drop a few lbs and get into it.  Today I pulled it out of the back of the closet where it was hid from Danny.  I don't think he would understand me buying something and not wearing it.  Anyway, I wore it and it was actually a bit loose!  I can't believe it, I am down a size, yeah for me.  The next hurdle for me next week is a lunch with Nicky, I hope she sees the difference.

I got a job! YEAH! I start next monday, so watch out world.  I now get to see if my diet smart plan works in the working world.  I am glad since I can't continue to stay home and walk by the pantry or the refrigerator and wonder if I am hungry or just bored.  I am now going to post to the member boards and will give you an update on how that goes.

Sorry I haven't written, but I think I have finally found  ajob.  It is not a lateral step from my previous position, but more income into the house will keep me from stress eating.  I also think it will help me reconnect.  If things work out, I will be unemployed no longer.  I like the office and the people seemed very nice and welcoming, they offered me a bottled water and took me to lunch.  I was nervous and didn't eat, but now I am examining everythign I ate.

I have lost 1.5 lbs. this week and my grand total for 25 days is now 9.5 lbs.  I want to throw a party at 10!  Today I want to talk about modified foods.  HEY DSP, YOU NEED TO FOCUS MORE ON MODIFIED FOODS, THESE ARE GREAT; Are you kidding me?  these are great.  On thursday I had a modified breakfast of turkey bacon and cheese grits, a cheeseburger and fries for lunch, and then I had soup, salad, and baked potato for dinner.  I was stuffed and everything I tried was modified and I stayed under my calorie limit and lost weight. 

I am tired and today was not a good day for me.  I don't really want to post, so I am going to keep this one brief.  So far I have had about 2000 calories, real calories, and I have no excuses.  I am not happy, so I am fighting my cravings tonight as best I can.  I really wish they would call and offer me a position, but until then, it may be a quart of banana pudding ice cream and a spoon tonight, I will let you know what happens.

Nicky said she could tell a difference, but it is hard for me to tell yet.  Today I stuck hard to the plan, but this is the week that Nicky told me would be the toughest, "make this one count!" was her motto.

 last couple of days I have tried to hold at 1500 DSP calories but more free foods.  I think it worked, I feel better.  Tried the stir fry chicken recipe I got a couple of days ago from the gang at the plan, it was really good and filling, it was much better than the super syruppy chinese I used to eat.

Note on the newsletter.  The September one was pretty boring, but the new October format is much better, it was much more vibrant and exciting.  I am trying to get Patricia to join, I forwarded the newsletter for her to look at, but I don't think she is ready yet.  I am hoping to lose more weight and get her on the plan so I can help her and help myself like Nicky did.  Next week, I post on the members boards and start interacting.

Decided against my calorie increase based on my weight loss again last night, I have now lost 8 lbs. in 3 weeks.  Next week is going to be crazy, so I don't think I can focus on my diet, even though I am energized-DANNY NOTICED THAT I WAS SKINNIER LAST NIGHT FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me start by saying I am sorry that I haven't written in a few days.  Let's get back on track and let me give you a sense for what is going on.  I have a second interview on Tuesday!!! Yeah!!! Wish me luck. 

Emily had a great Halloween, but Danny and Josh were both a little sick.  I had to keep Josh home yesterday, but he is much better.  It is has been great since the great halloween binge and I lost the 1/2 pound and then some.  The net result has been that I LOST TWO WHOLE POUNDS SINCE THEN, EAT YOUR HEART OUT JENNY CRAIG.  I weighed in this morning at 185.5 lbs, down from my starting weight of 193.  I have lost 7.5 lbs in under 3 weeks.  I guess this isn't a quick weight loss program, but it is really working.