The Perfection Trap
I haven’t figured out exactly how much weight I should aim to lose just yet. I’m only 5 ft 1 ½ inches tall, so I’m not very big. The rule I’ve heard is that you should weigh five pounds over 100 pounds for every inch you are over five feet, which means my “perfect” weight is 107 pounds. I’m just not sure it is a realistic goal for me to have, as I haven’t been even close to 107 pounds since about the time I hit puberty.
So, I set the initial goal weight of 120 pounds, which be a total weight loss of 58 pounds. 120 pounds feels like it would be maintainable. But then I get to thinking about it, and I start to wonder. In order to be as healthy and as fit as possible, shouldn’t I try to get to my perfect weight? My cholesterol has improved dramatically since March, when high blood sugar was giving me off the charts triglycerides, but it is still high.
I want to have kids, and I think losing as much weight as possible would help me have the healthiest diabetic pregnancy possible. And let’s not discount impatience factor. It has taken me six and half months to lose the 28.4 pounds I’ve lost so far. At that rate, it will take me almost another year to get to 107 pounds, and that is just too long! Then again, I am a perfectionist, and shooting for a goal that is less than the A+ of weight loss just bugs me.
So I’ve got to figure out what will work for me. What is realistic? How much weight can I lose and keep off for the rest of my life? Can I be optimally healthy at 120 pounds instead of 107? I’ll have a normal BMI at 120 pounds, but that’s not the whole picture. Hopefully when I actually get to 120 pounds those questions will be easier to answer. Now, if I could just speed up the process!