Within a few hours of leaving the San Francisco airport, I successfully destroyed my diet. I really can’t blame United Airlines. I was just looking for an excuse and a weekend trip away was perfect. Now I am frustrated and angry with myself, the “low will power, easily distracted from diet” self. I don’t even want to get on the scale because I fear it. Besides, I already know what it will say (after it laughs and taunts me of course). I can see that I have gained weight. When I break a diet, man, I break it all the way. I break it in style. I go all out. On Saturday night during an impromptu trip to the beach, I consumed the following in a five-hour stretch:
1. Cheese steak
2. Soft serve ice cream cone with sprinkles
3. Small bucket of fries
4. Red velvet cake with ice cream
5. Funnel cake
Of course, before I ate all this I went on a few rides and made sure to shake myself up a lot. I felt okay until the three-hour drive home. That’s when I felt a little dizzy, had a pounding headache and thought I was coming down with a virus. Soon after getting back home at four in the morning I started throwing up. The moral of this diet story is that you just cannot go from a 1200 calorie diet to eating a truckload of junk without paying the price. Oh, and I paid that price for a while until I finally fell asleep for a few hours before driving to the airport in the morning. I wish I could say that it wasn’t worth it, but I can’t. It totally was. I love junky food. This is what worries me. It is the thought that metaphorically wakes me up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat. If I can’t handle a diet during these short weekend trips, how will I ever be successful long term? I’m already yo-yoing and I can clearly hear the thinly veiled exasperation in my Jenny Craig counselor’s voice. She keeps telling me that I have to find motivation that works for me. I already find her unpleasant and can tell that in the long run she will seriously bug me. Oh well, time to get back on the horse as they say. I’m just full of catch phrases today!